Decisions, Decisions

I started this blog to talk about dreams and music.  For me, most of the time, these two items are intertwined.

This past week has been a very stressful time.  Work has been a challenge, construction (as ever) is continuing at my home, and I have some very large decisions to make.  As this is a public forum, I prefer not to share too many details, so just know that the decisions are kind of a big deal.

In my life, stress leads to dreams.  Dreams lead to songs being stuck in my head.  Except this week.  I have had zero music running through my brain.  I cannot begin to tell you how much I hate that.  Music and lyrics have meaning for me, so the lack of these is pretty bizarre.

So after several days of stress, tears, debates, and getting opinions from anyone I could...I was on my drive home last night.  I put in the newest cd from Matt Wertz (ok, honestly, it has been on repeat in my car since I got it) and lost myself in the beautiful music.

And then THE song came on.  The one that spoke to me.  The one that brought me peace.  Is there a better feeling than that?

"What I Know Right Now" by Matt Wertz

Looking back, I was so naive / To think the world was spinning round me / I kept on pushin' but it didn't budge / Kept on tryin' but it never was / I thought that I could pave my way / But the truth had something else to say
Climbing high, falling low / Hanging on, letting go / Sometimes it takes a crooked road to figure out / Oh, I wish I'd known what I know right now
There's something working out there / That's bigger than us / It's hard to see and it's hard to trust / It's leading us home, sending us signs / Putting back the pieces of paradise

Don't misunderstand now, but please know that I am not letting music make my life decisions for me.  I am simply using music to clear my head, to allow me to relax, to provide a new insight.

And once again, it worked for me.  So let me leave you with this thought.  Hard decisions will come in our lives, there is no avoiding that.  What matters is how we handle those hard decisions.  I won't say I'm great at it, but the key is to find what gets you through them.  To find the people, the music, the bible verses - whatever it is that helps you during tough times.  Find those things, cling to them, listen to them, and open your mind.  For you never know when a different point of view will appear, you never know when a stroke of genius will hit, you never know what may be sitting in front of you, waiting for you to open your eyes.

I'm sure it's obvious, but my song of the day is "What I Know Right Now" by Matt Wertz

And today, I add a bible verse - John 14:27 - Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you.  I do not give to you as the world gives.  Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.